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Literature
Christmas
Stolen another one
and left behind
a son who's too young
to know what was lost.
Christmas is the worst
month.
All pretending to be merry
but Death is still on the hunt.
Your pain penetrates
this heart nestled among
ice and thorns
but there's nothing to be done.
I can only manage to hold on
and bear the brunt
of these tears.
And wait for the sun.
                     that never seems to come
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That look :iconrainknox:RainKnox 1 0
Literature
IV
Your room is bathed
in gold light.
The effect of
bronze curtains.
It smells like you.
It’s cluttered with clothes
and knickknacks.
The smell of coffee drifts
from the shop below
and through the open
window muffled speech
floats.
Still, it is unbearably quiet.
I can hear your breath
and the turquoise sheets rustle like
dry leaves as I sit up
-examining the damage-
A bruise on my arm,
you must have grabbed me
at some point.
A burn on my throat.
Finger prints mar my ass.
I can feel my body.
A fucking miracle.
Your sleeping face is
unnervingly peaceful.
You show no guilt,
though I doubt I’d
be able to tell.
Your hair is a mess,
standing every which way.
Your muscles draw my eyes,
I feel an itch in my fingers.
Paper and pencil are
got, without waking you.
I trace the lines
and forms.
Your lips even seem
to smile, secretly.
Lights flash in my eyes,
sparkling gems falling
from the ceiling fan-
fading out. I ignore them.
In my concentration
I’m startled, pen jutting across th
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Literature
III
Coffee shops are supposed
to be an artist’s home base.
But I find the noise unbearable,
the stares of other stifling.
-Well, maybe if you’d stop
dying your hair blue-
Mom once commented.
She has  many opinions,
I was never the son she wanted.
But -blue- is blue.
Water, skies, rain
and melancholy.
Blue feels warm
so I continue.
The coffee tastes better at home.
So why?
I was wandering one day.
I do that to get ideas
every now and then.
I saw you through
the coffee shop glass.
A rough face nestled
between bright pink and lime
advertisements.
A Christmas parade, or church fair,
I don’t know.
Your ears are guaged,
like mine.
Hair mostly short.
Black,
except for the top
which was brushed forward
and dyed almost white.
Green eyes laughing
at your co-worker,
employee, rather.
You have a mischevious
air around you,
outside of the bedroom anyway.
So attracted,
like a moth to a flame
-how appropriate the cliche-
I got sub-par coffee.
And came back for more.
I never said an
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Literature
I
This square became
a refuge from too much.
Too much feeling
noise and energy.
Too much expectation.
Too much world.
Just a square.
White walls.
Barren but littered
with paintings and sketches,
scraps of ‘almosts’
crumpled into sad
little wrinkled trash.
Ideas thrown away
Only a laptop
sitting quietly,
coldly on a used
wooden desk as
any value.
Yet I wouldn’t give
this room to anyone.
From time to time
I am checked on
-questioned about-
eating, sleeping, bathing.
Human functions.
Though my expressions
make me closer to
a robot.
Don’t worry so much.
This is a self-imposed-
glorious-
isolation.
Until
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Literature
The O-H
Ohio is full of
Gangbangers,
bible-thumpers
who never read the thing—
anti-gay, anti-abortion,
overweight, obese,
illiterate
hunters who deserve to be
hunted.
It’s full of close-minded
Bigots.
I got married too young
in Ohio—
and felt depressed,
anxious, suicidal,
outcast.
And my teenage years
were years of
being misunderstood,
of being hated—
turmoil for me
and my mother.
BUT
Ohio is a strange
sort of melancholy,
forested,
creepy place.
It’s home to my homies:
The misfits, the outcasts,
the losers and the nerds.
We love anime
and video games.
I fell in love here—
gave myself completely
to another human being
In Ohio.
We’re a skater boi
culture—
and we raised Markiplier,
Twenty-one Pilots,
Steven Spielberg
R.L. Stein and
Dave Chappelle.
In Ohio
I became consumed
by art again,
and became content
with my poverty
and my mind
and my body
the way it is.
And that has never happened
before.
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Literature
1
Lightheaded.
dizzy -
pounding-
Please!
Put your hand
tightly around
my throat.
        Don't squeeze.
Just Secure
Stop-
it from escaping and
letting lose my head
from my shoulders
and floating off
into the dark.
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Literature
Prologue
Camel Crush
Tiny menthol flavor
The mall looming
at the edge of the lot
your head crowned with dirty
lamp light
burning afterglow in my eyes
love rises from toes to chest
like the swell of grey salt waters
you the boatman
come to make a path
for the aftermath of ghosts
beacon on the coast
phantoms hold skeletal frames
with transparent fingers
on the threshold of discovery
eyes gaze through a fog
the shore so close
thrown back by the tempest
heart-sore skeletal fingers
grasping clawing basking in our life
I didn’t drown but ended
face down in grit
in my eyes and between teeth
making outrageous demands
who where what is “I”?
but you only smiled
steady
and offered a hand
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I just read a journal about how the front page of deviantart is all the same. I agree, and it's a good and a bad thing. Anime has clearly influenced a lot of people, myself included. That shows on the front page. As well as people trying to shame those with skinny or "normal" body types, furries and most of all, nude stuff. This gets me thinking about my generation.

 I'm not sure if I'm a millennial, but it certainly is my generation and my culture. We are surely obsessed with sex. The younger generation is even worse, and it shows all over this website. But can I really say anything?

Previously, I never much cared for sex. It was a chore, a labor. And while I get what my s.o. J says about it being "a way to connect", it never felt that way to me, except on rare occasions. I grew up in a rural Christian household, so I'm sure there are hang-ups about sex from that as well. While I don't care about religion or God, or care if I even believe in it or not (it changes day to day, and that's fine), I still had this ingrained sense of shame about sex. It was dirty. Those noises I make, yeah, those are wrong. Giving head to J? Degrading. I didn't want it from him either.

But, I've known for awhile, and been suppressing, myself as a person. As I near 30 I find myself not how I expected to be. Still in retail. Still drifting, not able to put myself out there. I went through a period of trying to be "adult" and finally said fuck it. I find myself dressing and acting more and more like my goth teenager past these days. I remembered when I was five, younger even, that my imaginary friends always punished me in some way. I was always in the corner. I wanted to be scolded. In these past months I quit pushing these thoughts away and gave in. I told J these things, and he didn't run away. He participated in it.

Lately, sex is all I think about. Really, it was all I EVER thought about, even when I was suppressing it. Somehow, sex seems to be everything these days. I can't wait to see J after work, to do all the things I always wanted, to be manhandled, and to even give BJ's, every day. And I've never felt better about myself. Despite an uncertain future, living below poverty line in a dead end job with a college degree I can't use and no will to get teaching certification, despite dealing with deaths and the disease that J has that makes him feel useless and hurt, I have never been more in love or more happy with myself as a person.

And it comes across in my art too. I'm no different than those people on the front page: sex-obsessed millennials who, most likely, just want to drown out all the bad shit going down these days with the oldest of human entertainment. I can't say I blame them.
Stolen another one
and left behind
a son who's too young
to know what was lost.

Christmas is the worst
month.
All pretending to be merry
but Death is still on the hunt.

Your pain penetrates
this heart nestled among
ice and thorns
but there's nothing to be done.

I can only manage to hold on
and bear the brunt
of these tears.
And wait for the sun.


                     that never seems to come
I just read a journal about how the front page of deviantart is all the same. I agree, and it's a good and a bad thing. Anime has clearly influenced a lot of people, myself included. That shows on the front page. As well as people trying to shame those with skinny or "normal" body types, furries and most of all, nude stuff. This gets me thinking about my generation.

 I'm not sure if I'm a millennial, but it certainly is my generation and my culture. We are surely obsessed with sex. The younger generation is even worse, and it shows all over this website. But can I really say anything?

Previously, I never much cared for sex. It was a chore, a labor. And while I get what my s.o. J says about it being "a way to connect", it never felt that way to me, except on rare occasions. I grew up in a rural Christian household, so I'm sure there are hang-ups about sex from that as well. While I don't care about religion or God, or care if I even believe in it or not (it changes day to day, and that's fine), I still had this ingrained sense of shame about sex. It was dirty. Those noises I make, yeah, those are wrong. Giving head to J? Degrading. I didn't want it from him either.

But, I've known for awhile, and been suppressing, myself as a person. As I near 30 I find myself not how I expected to be. Still in retail. Still drifting, not able to put myself out there. I went through a period of trying to be "adult" and finally said fuck it. I find myself dressing and acting more and more like my goth teenager past these days. I remembered when I was five, younger even, that my imaginary friends always punished me in some way. I was always in the corner. I wanted to be scolded. In these past months I quit pushing these thoughts away and gave in. I told J these things, and he didn't run away. He participated in it.

Lately, sex is all I think about. Really, it was all I EVER thought about, even when I was suppressing it. Somehow, sex seems to be everything these days. I can't wait to see J after work, to do all the things I always wanted, to be manhandled, and to even give BJ's, every day. And I've never felt better about myself. Despite an uncertain future, living below poverty line in a dead end job with a college degree I can't use and no will to get teaching certification, despite dealing with deaths and the disease that J has that makes him feel useless and hurt, I have never been more in love or more happy with myself as a person.

And it comes across in my art too. I'm no different than those people on the front page: sex-obsessed millennials who, most likely, just want to drown out all the bad shit going down these days with the oldest of human entertainment. I can't say I blame them.

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Ahhhh thank you so much for the watch bby:iconmuahplz: I really appreciate it <333

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